Week 45 // Lovely Cynical Cyclical


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Everyone everyone everyone sees it
The way that we change who we are
With the change in the seasons

And each time we look at it, look at ourselves we believe it
What’s not to believe?
Not believing at least would be treasonous

The truth’s at the end of the road
And everyone feels it but nobody knows
And everyone’s guarding it ever so close

Maybe I maybe I maybe I dreamed it
The day we all shed our own skin
To reveal what’s beneath it

And maybe we’re crushing ourselves by the weight of our secrets
And maybe it’s time to be time to be
Time to believe in us

The truth’s at the end of the road
And everyone feels it but nobody knows
And everyone’s guarding it ever so close

Notes
 width=We’ve got some colors popping out this week here in my native land! It is my favorite time of year because the change is so magnificent and it underscores the very essence of our human condition which includes (but is not limited to) our inextricable link with the world around us. This link manifests itself in a curious way. In no small sense we become different people as the seasons progress. It is probably a reaction to the different demands that each season places on our every day lives, but in a real way our very likes, dislikes, moods, passions, interests, sociability, interactivity, and connectivity are subject to the whim of the season outside of our windows. This begs an important question: just who the hell are we really? That question is at the heart of this week’s song. Not all of the changes that come with each season are positive. Our cyclical selves are not created equal. It is totally normal to wake up in the middle of a season and realize that you are not very excited about yourself. It is conversely appropriate to find yourself on the seasonally best day of the year (whatever your preference may be; mine is right now) and realize you are exactly the person you want to be. It is this realization that we are so inconsistent that worries me. I want to strive to be consistent, but that would be a battle against our nature. I’d have to move someplace with no seasons (and no offense to those of you who live in places like that and love it) but that would completely suck. I’d rather battle my demons year in and year out and ask big questions of myself. I’d rather accuse myself of dishonesty, and every now and then feel like a disingenuous jerk. It’s not going to last anyway. That is the natural way of things. That is the change of the seasons.

Here’s hoping your Monday doesn’t totally suck.
~Jesse

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Week 44 // Burning Ways


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I awoke like
The sound of thunder
Bones in my blanket
Alone and wondering
If I’d be a good man
Like my father
I could be honest
This time next autumn

She could be there
Coming in on a wave oh
She’s got intent in her stare yeah
And her burning ways oh

I’m a volcano
Like molten rocks
And God was an artist
So all’s not lost
And I was a lover
Before this started
I was in love with
My broken heart

And there was a time
I been a coward and a stray yeah
I couldn’t look in her eyes no
I would have turned away yeah
But she’ll come with me
I’m gonna find her some day yes
She’s got intent in her stare oh
She’s got them burning ways

What you ain’t learned yet kid
You’re not the only one
You gotta give what you get oh
You gotta love the sun yeah
And she’ll come with you
Riding in like a wave
She’s intent to find you
She’s got burning ways

Notes
 width=Burning Ways is an uncharacteristically optimistic love song by a man who has not been in love for quite some time. There’s something about living in a new place that makes me feel like anything is possible. In this song I reflect on the attitudes that I’ve had about myself and about love. I discuss the ways that I’ve been, the ways that I feel now, and the ways that I want things to be. Essentially the point of the song is that in a new place, people have an opportunity to be the person they would like to be. Whatever baggage they have had doesn’t have to come with them. There are new people around every corner. The blissfully optimistic part of the song is that when you are pining away for some seemingly impossible love, there is somebody out there looking just as hard to find you. It’s not necessarily realistic, but it’s a nice thought, so I sang about it like it was the truth. Also, I believe that this song features some of my best moments on guitar. Cool!

Here’s hoping your Monday doesn’t totally suck.
~Jesse

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Week 43: To Recognize The Sun Again


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It was an ice age
So like a grave
And we’re still clawing our way up and out of it

And I would move like that
I’d be electric on the earth
And then the night would come

And I should feel this way
Like every fiber is brand new
Like my heart is waking up

And never before
But when you were young
Did you move in the world
Like a sensitive one
Like you felt where you were
Like you felt everyone

And if this burden is never lifted
Will we recognize this sun again?

And were we ever
Just artists and lovers
Living out lives and surviving the best we can?

And never before
But when you were young
Did you move in the world
Like a sensitive one
Like you felt where you were
Like you felt everyone

Notes
 width=I didn’t intend to write something about the anniversary of the 9/11 attack, but as the weekend wore on it was so very present in my mind that I couldn’t write about something else. I decided that if I were to do this, I would do it from a different angle. I didn’t want to write something political or patriotic. I just wanted to write what I felt, and I wanted to do it abstractly. Like literally every American of my generation, I remember that day as our collective loss of innocence. There would never be any going back to the way we felt before: the way we felt safe and unburdened. The way we felt like children. The decade that followed pushed recollections of those old feelings deeper down as the world’s reactions to the event spiraled ever away from rationality and kindness, and ever toward continued calamity.

I felt bottled up yesterday. It was a kinetic frustration of some physical reaction trapped inside of me. For me, the only remedy to this feeling was movement. I went outside and I ran hard, and while I was running I felt a decade’s worth of misplaced innocence reaching out of me and trying to touch the world. It was like my skin was cracking to reveal some kind of light underneath. The world has been a hard place these last ten years, and it has often been difficult to want to have anything to do with it. But yesterday I felt connected. Perhaps it was because people weren’t trying to avoid the elephant in the room. People were looking right at it to remember what they lost, and maybe in doing so, some of us were able to remember a glimmer of the way things used to be.

Here’s hoping your Monday doesn’t totally suck.
~Jesse

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Week 42 // The Year Of The Restless Ones / What Happens Next?!

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Oh and there came a day
When I rode into the sunset
Is there any other way?
And oh while we’re young
Will we live for the truth?
Be the restless ones
Not to waste this youth
And on the first of the year
We’ll remember this morning
It started right here
‘Cause this was the day
Of no regrets on the run
And this was the year
Of the restless ones

And I’ve been like a child
Experience heightened and powers dull
Unready to deal with things like love
And forgiveness and what should be held above
Like what is the meaning of these years in a feeling of defeat?
And the healing of ascent in the fall
And I’m given enough
And What could happen next?
What could come after this?

Oh in an ordinary way
You can live locked inside yourself
Everyone can turn away
But as long as you live
You’ll be tethered to the ground
Better living in a restless world
Better loving to be found

Notes
On Friday I literally rode off into the sunset. It was awesome. I know I said I was moving a few weeks back (and even wrote a song about it), but a funny thing happened and I moved last friday instead. This song is about emerging in a new place and a new state of mind. It is about realizing that you are young and and how amazing that is. It is about recognizing how you’ve been less than you could have been and coming to the realization that there is no way to know what is coming next. It is about embracing restlessness because it is the very life’s blood of youth and of youth’s urgency and vitality. It is about starting something even when you don’t know what it is. It is about living in a moment that you know for a fact is a fixed point in your history that you will doubtlessly look back on with wonder. It is about perspective.

Here’s hoping your Monday doesn’t totally suck.
~M.E.

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Week 41 // Way Up In Elder Mountain


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Way up in Elder Mountain
You can remember who you are
You remember the sensation
Of your own beating heart

And way down on the coastline
In the early morning air
I resolve to my intention
To be laying myself bare

And I would love to know
What’s the balance of it all?
Of what we’re carrying inside

Like the part and not the whole
And the nature of us all
And the features that we hide

Take them all for a ride

I found a flower in my notebook
After I had reached my home
It had turned brown and dried all over
But its fragrance struck a note

And I remember one so guarded
Like a chip upon the soul
It’s no good to feel downhearted
Waiting around and getting old

And I would love to know
What’s the balance of it all?
Of what we’re carrying inside

Like the part and not the whole
And the nature of us all
And the features that we hide

And the chances that we take
On the people that we know
And the ones we leave behind

And the hours of the day
And the days that make a year
And the years that build a life

Take them all for a ride

Notes
 width=Last week I came home from a grand and sprawling adventure that took me to the most beautiful corners of New England. As always, trips like that wind up being fertile ground for self reflection. Traveling around New England, I am always struck by the power that the varying landscapes have over my state of mind. It is nearly as potent as the power that the people that I find there have over my sense of connection to humanity. This is a song about several places and several people, but mostly it is a song about taking your sense of self and your sense of others on the road. That is where the answers are, and more importantly it is where the questions are. I am certain that asking questions is more important than finding answers in life. Curiosity about people is what makes it interesting to live. That is why I drive around New England. It is full of such curious people.

Here’s hoping your Monday doesn’t totally suck.
~Jesse

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Week 40 // Hands And Feet Yeah


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Miguel Williams
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Jesse Lindsey
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The truth comes alive just for the sake of it
The cover is wide open, I’m over it
So good I’m alive to be a part of it
The river is wide, I know how to swim in it

Some people they got no beliefs
In the kindness of the people that they meet yeah
And on the Earth we got hands and feet
And we can use them and abuse them like we please yeah

The Earth is so wide open and dangerous
And on every side people get stranger
And they’ve got beauty inside just for the sake of it
And I am alive because I’m in love with it

Notes
 width=And here we are at week forty of an experiment that has brought me more personal growth and satisfaction than most other experiences in my adult life. I would be remiss not to mention the extreme feeling of gratitude that has come over me this week. I feel it toward family, friends, and strangers alike who have been so kind, open minded, and receptive to this project as I have worked on it for the better part of a year. I will save any more hubbub and self congratulations for week fifty-two which is fast approaching. For week forty I submit a tune about honesty, the nature of human kindness, the beauty inside strangers and friends, and the desire to learn to stay afloat in a perilous yet beautiful world. The artwork was the product of a gang coloring session with wonderful friends in a house on the Maine coast which become one of the latest stops on my friendship world tour that seems to have taken form out of the remaining weeks of summer. Thanks to those friends, and to all of you who have listened over the past many months. Please stick around!

Here’s hoping your Monday doesn’t totally suck.
~Jesse

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Week 39 // Take Your Love Down The Line


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The trees
The sun
The hearts
The love
The understanding

And she is him
And he is her
In truth unending

And all who gathered there
would see that love is tangible

Is love the thing that sets apart the human animal?

Take your love down the line
Trust your soul to be kind
Be the light in her eyes

Take your love down the line
Trust your soul to be kind
Be the light in his eyes

Notes
 width=My goodness what a wedding! I spent the weekend involved in one of the most beautiful weddings in the history of love! My friends got hitched under white pines and the shining sun on a beautiful Saturday afternoon in Maine. I was fortunate enough to be a groomsman, and also had the opportunity to play a set at the cocktail hour with a fine group of friends. The whole experience was life affirming and uplifting in every way. My friends’ marriage has been a forgone conclusion for years, but finally watching them experience their wedding was satisfying on an elemental level. You would have to have been inhuman not to have walked away having learned something a bit more about love than you knew before. It was just that kind of wedding. So here I submit a tune I made up about it.

Here’s hoping your Monday doesn’t totally suck.
~Jesse

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Week 38: Wouldn’t You Say/Wouldn’t You Know


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Wouldn’t you say that sometimes you can’t really know
How things turn away, catch you blind with all of your hopes
And you just can’t get your way if you don’t really try
And wouldn’t you know
Things look great
Then they don’t

And wouldn’t you say that you’re here by a choice of your own?
There are so many ways to disappear
And something has grown inside you saying it’s time you could stand alone
And wouldn’t you know
You had a plan
Now you don’t

And I’m ready for the summer time to pass the torch down the line
‘Cause when autumn comes I’ll be living a new kind of life

Wouldn’t you say that your mind and your heart ought to know
That they are the same, so unkind to be treating them so
Like they could not aim to find the strength in your soul
And wouldn’t you know
You’d lose heart
Except you wont

And I’m ready for the summer time to pass the torch down the line
‘Cause when autumn comes I’ll be living a new kind of life

Notes
 width=This is a song about things not going exactly as you intended them to go. It is a pretty simple song, existing within just a few guitar overdubs, a couple of vocal dubs, and an exceedingly simple drum loop that I made in the span of about ten seconds. I have a penchant for doing things in a complicated way, but since the sentiment behind the song was so simple, it seemed natural to keep the instrumentation simple as well. The words describe the emotion that comes with having to make new plans when the ones that seemed so perfect suddenly just don’t work. The emotions range from resignation, to acceptance, and onward toward resolve. It is basically saying “better luck next time!”

Here’s hoping your Monday doesn’t totally suck.
~Jesse

P.S. This entry was scheduled to launch at the proper time, however an unknown technical glitch occurred. Strange and unexplained, and also nobody’s fault.

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Week 37 // Illumination


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Pick me up and send me out
That’s what times like these are about
That’s what days like these can do
Dust me off and change the tune
And my God it was like a dream
The last few years somehow they seemed
Like a beauty rest in a tight cocoon
Like a cradle rocked in a crowded room
A lovely thought that couldn’t end too soon

Has anyone
Has anyone ever been so
Has anyone ever been so loved as me?

Has anyone
Has anyone ever loved so
Has anyone ever loved so well as you?
No one has ever loved so well as you

All this goodness, all this time
And all this feeling, all this trying
All these captured moments fading
All this work and all this waiting
Oh the current, swift, unkind
And oh the child so soft and blind
And oh the Earth so vast and waiting
And all the seconds I’m never trading
No, I wouldn’t trade it for a thousand better lives

Has anyone
Has anyone ever been so
Has anyone ever been so loved as me?

Has anyone
Has anyone ever loved so
Has anyone ever loved so well as you?
No one has ever loved so well as you

Notes
 width=I haven’t directly mentioned on my website that for the past two years I have lived with my parents in my childhood home. Thanks to the kindness of some close friends, I’ll be moving out this week, and it strikes me as a particularly important occasion. My time back at home has been interesting, strange, sometimes wonderful, sometimes numbing, and at a crucial stage in my life it was totally necessary. I didn’t have anywhere else to go. This week it is tough to talk about feeling appreciative of my parents for all of the love and support that they have offered me over the past few years, because I have recently mishandled a situation that hurt them in very avoidable ways. The clarity of hindsight is quite remarkable isn’t it? In any case I offer this song as a reflection on my time spent at home. While I am unlikely to look back on the past two years as the highpoint in my life, I think it is safe to say that I have rarely felt so well loved as I have since I moved home. Honestly, I wouldn’t trade the past two years for anything. While I majorly screwed up showing this feeling of gratitude to my parents through my actions, I wish to attempt to convey it through a song.

Here’s hoping your Monday doesn’t totally suck.
~Jesse

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Week 36 // The Soul Upon Reentry


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Late one hell of a Tuesday night
I was pondering something so hard to describe
That I’ve been missing my own damn life
And I think I might be back again

And people got this way
Of forgetting who they are
It could be happening to you
You could be taking it to far
You could be thinking you’re immune
You could be thinking it’s impossible to lose yourself this way
To be that careless, it ain’t you

And I was thinking it
Must be the weather
And I was feeling it
Piecing it together
I think I knew it
Couldn’t last forever

And somewhere else
A sense of place
Another time
I saw myself
A locked embrace
A knowing sigh
I love this way
I got this right

Are you whole again?
Have you had enough?
Are you home again?
Have you beaten through the rough?
Are you clear again?
Did you count the days that passed you while you found the way?

And the early morning light seems strange reflected off the windows
And they blind me as I pass them by and I wonder
Did the Earth sit still while I left it here?
Did it stop its spinning and sit for years?
Will it start by the end of the summer?

Are you whole again?
Have you had enough?
Are you home again?
Have you beaten through the rough?
Are you clear again?
Did you count the days that passed you while you found the way?

Notes
 width=This song was the easiest Mount Everest song to finish, and I think it was because I felt the sentiment so deeply. It is difficult to describe exactly what I am singing about in this song. Lately I have felt quite profoundly that I am my self again. I have realized that for a period of years I have walked around as somebody else. I looked like me and I sounded like me, but I wasn’t me. But if you were to speak to me today, I think you would be speaking to the genuine article. That might sound strange, but somehow I don’t think I am the only person who has felt this way. Life intervenes. It does things you don’t want it to do. It puts you on a path, you react, and you change. Sometimes you change back. It is hard to say when it was that I last felt like myself, and It is extremely difficult say what has made me feel that way again. What I do know is that last Tuesday night I lay awake in bed and I had this thought: “It feels so good to be back again.” It was a strange thought. I had recently been on a trip, so perhaps I was thinking about that. But no, I was thinking that it felt good to be back after a much longer absence. And it does feel good. I’m still getting used to it. The feeling was sort of like the soul reentering the body. So now my soul is settling into it’s old space, a bit rusty from not being used. It is nice to be back.

Here’s hoping your Monday doesn’t totally suck.
~Jesse

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